Motherhood

So, I'm feeling a little mushy today....

I'm still so astonished with the love I have for Nicholas. Every song I hear, I somehow relate to him or our new life. I find myself searching for books and poems trying to find all the right words to explain this experience called motherhood. I get teary-eyed at all the shows about parents and kids. By the way, did anyone catch Oprah today?

One story on there was about a father who wrote a journal to his son while over in Iraq. The father was killed by a roadside bomb, but had left a journal full of fatherly advice to his son. The mother (Dana Canedy), then wrote a book to her son (A Journal for Jordan) and included excerpts from the journal. One excerpt read: Be humble about your accomplishments, work harder than the man next to you, it is all right for boys to cry. Sometimes crying can release a lot of pain and stress. Never be ashamed to cry. It has nothing to do with your manhood.

This got me thinking about everything Tim and I really have to teach Nick. It's not just about the ABCs and 123s. It's all the life lessons, too. And I can only hope that we've experienced enough of them ourselves to pass them on to him.

Over the past 7 weeks, I've been peed on, pooped on, laughed & cried, been so sleep deprived I thought I would die, learned that I'm so much stronger than I ever thought, am able to finally comprehend my Mom's love for me, realized brushing my teeth and showering has now fallen on the list of daily priorities, have never done so much laundry in my life, but most of all -- I've learned that I love my new purpose as a Mom, and wouldn't change one minute of it...